HOLY HOLY SHIT lol...its been a grip since i have wrote in this bitch...well alot has happened honestly since i last wrote in this...

well i was a busy boy keepin myself otu of jail...well my gf didn't tell me her tru age..i could just say that..and u all could just use ur imagination and get it rite...i had to go up there a couple times to talk to the cop that was called by her mom...WHO WAS FUCKIN chargin me with statutory rape...WTF..thats gay as hell..everything settled down which thank god it did..bc i have worked so hard 3 tiems to get my life back and i did everytime and this would have been a bullet to my life....

so school started..and its acually alot of fun...i gotta fuckin class with my main man M DIDDY...now known as DIDDY him self...i got this speach class which is awsome as hell..the people in there are histaricle..thats one class i will never miss...i also got human sexuality (wit mike), creative writtin but im droppin that, and human services..

IM 21 FUCKERS...who would have thought id live to see 21...i honestly didn't think id make it to 21...i got preaty fucked up which was alot of fun...michigan won earlier in the day against northern illinois....i went bar hopin with my dad, my sisters husband and his brother, and my uncle...i honestly think thats the best way to do it..i gotta great relationship with my family so it was amazin...we got home bout 230 and i acually took a couple of shots with my mom since she didn't go on our "guys nite" for my bday...i mean come on who else can say they've taken shots with their mom..GOD I LOVE MY FAMILY..they are the greataest thing in my life...my neice is my angel, my family has always helped me more then anyone

thats bout it...imma go bc i got some thinkin to do..peace and love ya'll

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NOTE TO SELF:: dont go for the biggest guy in the most pits at my size

yesterday was ozzfest..it was fuckin sick as fuck...it was a very eventful day of ozzfest i must say...i got there at 1230ish bc lawrence had to do a court gig he found out wednesday nite....i stuck round till 11 and ended up jettin..since he still had to do a bunch of things...i was so madd i missed 3 1/2 hours of music especially 3 of the 4bands i really wanted to see on 2nd stage i missed...i missed bury your dead, gizmachi, and soilwork...i figured i had to make up for missin some..so i got up close and got into a handful of moshpits...kse had the best pits in my opinion...its funny bc so many girls loved my hair..but guys were "mockin" me..well some, the drunk older ones were just dumb..but see its not like i want to impress the fags mockin me...i socked the shit out of one dude..he said like "i dont get why metal heads die their hair pink like fags" i ingored that since security was all over..then goin down steps he said "move it pink hair" and then shoved me a little...so i turned around and fuckin socked the shit out of him and just kept walkin..no one said shit bc they saw him doin that shit lol...DONT FUCK WITH A JUGGALO..ran into a fair amount of juggalos acually...i got violated by a drunk 40 year old lol....i was sittin down bc i was havin a rough day..her and a friend walked by they loved my hair so they took a picture of it..she asked if touch it..so she started to touch it..then just gave me a kiss..im like AHH...mudvayne put on a hell of a set..but kse stole the show in my eyes..black sabbath was so sick..but i left before it was over..bc i was just so drained and could barly function..it sucked major...i came home and crashed...

im busy today..many things to do...

i dont know what else to say since thatsa ll thats gion on with me..im still strugglin but thats bc my meds are still changin up and down...oh well..LATER HOMIES

whats up everyone...i got back wednesday evening from alaska...i was frickin dead tired...the cruise was the most amazing thing i have ever expierenced...ive never seen anything like the sites i saw out there...the most beautiful mountain ranges with snow cap tops and glaciers on them...the sounds and bay's we went thru were amazin, the cities we went to were so spectacular...i got alot of things from the cities..but of course this juggalo didn't really pay for bascially any of them (shhhhhhhhh) lol....i got alot of good pictures of the sites out there...i really think alaska is one of the most romantic places ever at least it is in N america....it was the most amazin time chillin with my main boy mike...we were so insane we were laughin non stop...he really is my anti depressant...my parents took him and i out there, my brother and sis in law, sister and bro in law...we got dressed up every nite for dinner and i tell ya i looked hot as fuckin in a suit lol...its insane in 2000 the cruise i went on i was in love with the cruise director and she was the director for this one..so i gotta pic and talked to her a handful of times..goodtimes rite...

i honestly didn't wanna come back to michigan...i loved it so much up there, and i wanna move away from here as far as i can...chicago will do still since i got family there that i could ive with and get back on my feet there...just escape everything bad here...but it does seem like VERY slowly things could be startin to look up for me here in a2...not wantin to jinx it but i really do think things could be goin back up..

im bout to head out just thought id update a little..peace out yo

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ok imma take a vow rite now...WHO ever got ahold of jenna and told her all kinds of bullshit, i will hunt you down and draw your blood on my hands and carve bitch in ur chest....ive gotten over all the drama in past..we've all moved on and grown up a little..but now i got a brand new beef with someone..i dont know who and as of now, that makes them lucky as fuck...when people get in my personal life thats when my beef will not end till i find you...im tired of people stickin their face in my business...i can look past things but when u get into my personal business with friends and people that mean alot to me..dont go lyin to jenna bout me and ruin everything we had...its not same not talkin to her daily..she was one of few that helped me as much as she does..infact many people can't anymore..especially since someone decided to ruin everything AGAIN..

leavin for alaska tomorrow..im excited bout this bc im goin away from everythign that is bad here for 9 days..im back next thursday...thank god i get to escape things for a little...its gonna be tyte goin with my main man mike to....i kow all of you are gonna miss me lol...hell i wouldn't...but imma go, i have nothing to really talk bout..ill be back round 30th of this month...

so past few days have been insanely odd lol....

yesterday was one of the harder days of my year...my girl rikki is makin teh biggest mistake of her life...meetin a guy almost 2 weeks ago and movin to cali with him tomorrow..i went downtown to meet up with her before she left...i had some talkin to do with her bc i care the world for her bc she's one of my best friends and i can not let her do that, at least without tryin...i deff did not like the guy..i mean personally he is aight but the whole thing he got goin is so sketch...after a while i started to lose my cool and become a smart azz and he asked if i had a prob so flat out i was like YEA...and his punk azz asked if i wanted to step...OH DID I WANT TO..but 1) i was downtown ann arbor 2) cops were crawlin all over 3) im not gonna bc of rikki, i know i'd lose her...when they were leavin i huged her for easily a minute...i lost it and had to go sit somewhere and she sat with me for about 15-20 min..she is amazin..i love her so much..when they left when i was huggin her again after i got myself under control..i looked at him and said he better treat her rite or i will hunt him down..but to his credit when he was walkin away he said he'd take good care of her so i had to thank him..as long as he takes care of her thru all this i have no prob with him..thank god for lawrence to be there to keep me cool and i didn't do anything..when rikki and i were talkin when i lost it..lawrence the man he is..explained to him why i was pissed and how he didn't wanna mess with me bc im a psycho when i get pissed...

well after jenna played me like a played out beatles record...i acually am SOOOOOOO happy heather is goin with me..she means the world to me and i care SO much for her...id do anything and everything for her to make her happy and let her be safe..she's gonna join me to my cousins wedding and i must say..us two together all dressed up will look like ONE FUCKIN HOT JUGGALO COUPLE..even tho we aren't goin out lol..i can't wait for that i must say...

tuesday i fuckin leave for alaska..that will be hella of the shit..cant wait to go with my family and mike...but mike is family to us..he's my blood brother..we were just seperated at birth sadly and somehow we came out black and white...so interestin isn't it..i need to ask the doctors how they did that lmao...

ive chilled with lawrence every day but thats because i unfortunatly haven't quite made up with sascha and ian..but live ive said in past posts, those are the only two that i care bout that i keep close...but since im not koo wit all of em, i just kick it with him..and he has become bascially my 2nd best friend as of now..and the good news is that my mom has no prob with him, lawrence was afraid of that but she has no prob with him and gained respect since he's been there for me alot latly..

its sort of funny...when i came back from up north i found out the two girls i was interested in, didnt play me but both ended up with bf's when i came back..now what kind of shit is that..i mean shroomy was the mature one and i found out first time we talked after i was back, but jenna just stopped talkin to me for good..very mature jenna

but yea thats it..imma try and write in this one more time before i go, but if not..PEACE OUT MUTHA FACKO'S!!!!